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[alibali]

There probably is a lot i should say.
i know there's a lot i wanted to say
but i just don't feel like it
so i'm just gonna say fuck it.


i was thinking about how when i was younger and i went away. when i came back my mom cried - not cause i was back - but because i didn't miss her. and it's not that i just didn't miss my mom, it's just that i don't miss people. i just figure i'm gonna see them again eventually so whats the point in missing them? doesn't really make much sense. but now as i'm sitting here writing this i can't help but miss someone. i'd give a lot just to see them again. and it's not like they're dead so it'd be hard to see them. i just dont know if i really want to see them or if i want to see them because i think i miss them. this really isn't making much sense. but now i'm stuck thinking about that person. but not really missing them. but kinda. wow, can i make up my mind tonight? probably not.

i dont like being stuck in one place for a long time.
i feel stuck.
it doesn't really make much sense.
goodnight