bleh

i dont know whats wrong with me. i just wanna curl up into a ball and cry. i think that would be a good idea. but its bothering me cause i dont know whats wrong with me.

and i keep pushing people away. i know i'm doing it. i know i'm doing it as i do it. but i just sit and watch myself push people i care about away. i dunno whats wrong.

i hurt. i just ache. not any specific part. it's just me that hurts. does that make any sense? probably not.

i think i'm gonna go do that curling up thing..